my aunt's back from tokyo! I wonder if you know, how they live in Tokyo. If you see me then you mean it, then you know you have to go. Fast and furious (Drift, Drift, Drift) Fast and furious (Drift, Drift, Drift) anyway, she got me a halloween notebook and a box of chocolates from disneyland! hohos. i have some stuff that i confirm will get for birthday le. a green crumpler, green swatch watch, green wallet and an ipod nano. lucky me. and its all green.
tomorrow watching deathnote! with viv and my sis and elgene and friends. dumb eehui havent tell us whether she can make it. we're all going to wear green stuff. at least one thing will be green. denise wearing green shoes and green insides. im going to wear my green jacket, green hairband and green shoes. no green bag and wallet though. that is for after my birthday.
someone invited herself for my birthday. so thick-skinned.
people who are confirmed going:
vivian
eehui
tancheng
si'en
denise
yinmin
louisa
jiamei
so fun right? we're going to play dare. those who want to swim, i encourage you to come earlier because my sisters friends are going to flood the pool later. so be smart.

i love my internet.explorer.wizard.

ScorpioYour sign is that of intense Scorpio, the eighth sign of the zodiac, best characterized by passion, intensity, and emotionality. You are considered to be the most powerful and extreme sign of the zodiac, because you deal with the process of fundamental transformation on all levels.
Pluto is your ruler, Scorpio, and is known as the planet of permanent change and transformation. It is also associated with sex, the life cycle of birth and death, and regeneration.
You are the second of the three water signs. Pluto's influence makes you a charismatic, yet enigmatic person. While you may appear serene on the surface, you contain a magnetic intensity and powerfully hypnotic personality, belied only by a penetrating stare of deep intelligence.
Scorpio, you rule the eighth house of the chart, which is associated with other people's money, possessions, and values, as well as wealth received through inheritance; it also describes how and to what extent we commit, and bond with our partner, both on a sexual and emotional level. Yours is a fixed sign, which means that you are steadfast in adversity. Once you put your mind to something, you display self-discipline and staying power. You work stoically to achieve your goals - no matter the cost!
Dear Scorpio your strengths lie in your ability to confront and channel powerful emotions and profound insights. With your great tenacity and willpower, you are well suited to positions of authority, thanks also to your firm sense of responsibility, your strategical approaches, and your charismatic aura.
You do have weaknesses, too! You can be blunt and demanding, and at worst, you may become merciless, obsessive, and manipulative. You are known for your passive-aggressive behavior, which sometimes reveals your proclivity for martyrdom. You also run the risk of displaying destructive, and revengeful behavior, which confirms your radical all-or-nothing approach to life.

A-Damn good kisser.
B- Good all around person.
C- You're wild & crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E-You have a nice ass
F- People totally adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You get hyper easily.
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You like to try new things.
L- You live to have fun.
M- Success comes easily to you.
N- You are absolutely beautiful.
O- You're an awesome person.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Sexy!
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.
Z- You're a little too hard to find.

hahs. guess i'll do my full name. hoho.

J- Everyone loves you.
O- You're an awesome person.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
I- You get hyper easily.
E-You have a nice ass.

wow and everybody loves me, i doubt im that lovable but i shall deceive myself. and i know im an awesome person and im truly the people with one of the best personalities around. and kind of true that i get hyper easily but in fact, i get too hyper. and about the ass part, i beg to differ. hahahs. the first bit talks about friendship.

Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.
E-You have a nice ass.
O- You're an awesome person.
K- You like to try new things.
A-Damn good kisser.
I- You get hyper easily.
L- You live to have fun.
I- You get hyper easily.
N- You are absolutely beautiful.

look the rest of my name as a whole and you realised all of it can be linked to--romance. and sadly, im so not interested. im as interested in it as im interested in looking at my story. which can be quite interested. hahahs. i have to wait long long larh. longer than vivian and eehui, since eehui is attached to a portueguese guy and vivian is attracting guys around as she didnt wear her shirt properly and 露半粒. hahahs. viv's mummy, 说对吗? hahahs. XP
from this, i can actually tell what im looking out for-- friendship and romance. and thats the things everyone wants right? and to me, i'll choose friendship over romance.

we're planning to watch deathnote on first november and we dont know when eehui's going to come back from kuala lumpur and whether she is nice enough to buy anything for us. planning to watch at causeway as it's cathay there and cathay is only $6.50. and i think i'm going with viv and hopefully eehui. also, perhaps elgene and his friends. is he ask me first anyway. and i found out something about him but it's kind of confidential. hohos. and he's going to call his friends but nevermind, im a very friendly person.
my birthday's coming! yoohoo! looking forward to the presents i will receive. i have grown as green as a vegetable over the years, envying the number of presents my sisters get per birthday party. and this is my first. and did i mention lao jek bought me an authentic ipod nano from beijing? hahahs, lucky me.
i like my i.e.wiz

went east coast park to rollerblade today. but we had to drive my grandma around first and i was getting sick of the idea so i cycled. it was a blessing in disguise! i realised my wheels on the blades were badly disintegrated and it was coming off when i reached home. haha. anyway, i was so tired and my butt was sore after riding on the bike. then we went macs to eat and my sisters kept talking about me stepping on dog poo which i strongly denied because it was obviously not true. but i washed my soles anyway.

i love the sun
i love the wind
i love the clouds
i love the rain
i love you,
my cute little weatherman :))
internet.explorer.wizard.
you got to try to decipher this but i doubt you can.

the end is here! haha! but i have lots of lessons. MATHS. freaking maths. spoil my mood. nevermind, can ask mr lin for present. hohos. anyway, we found out who our mentor is today. mine is olivia from stjohns! haha. she looks nice and according to louisa, she's siao too. but i doubt i will communicate well with her especially when im not just siao but very siao. and that freaking biased prefect was like badmouthing me during the meeting. freak la. at least im not as biased as her.
vivian saw her in the canteen!!! oh my gosh, like so cool right? haha. i got back my ppr today. it was like kanasai but no failures. lowest is just maths which is 51%. but i didnt fail right? thats good. and its a c6. not a pathetic D. and im kind of glad that im finally leaving this freaking class.
some people in our class got good service award. and a certain someone got it too. but it is kind of obvious she got it because she's lc and if she doesnt get it it will be so MALU for her. but she doesnt deserve it. and lianna! yay! she was only monitor for 1 semester but she got it. 靠实力.

wanted to go run today. still thinking whether should go or not. im going to return my vcd later. like due for so long. haha. then perhaps i shall go bishan park from there. my horoscope says that i should get some exercise. or at least a long swim. i shall go swimming later if my parents going. then i will sleep well tonight and enjoy the day tomorrow. i want to go get some gifts. shall go later as well. haha. either amk or thomson plaza. i think go popular or something. today is a fun filled day as my sisters are not at home. but i wonder if i have the stamina to do it. haha.

failure is the way to success
but ive failed and still dont see the success
i failed again and again
but i ended up a failure

today went vivocity with my aunt, my sisters and jeron! vivian went at the same time too. haha. we met. we didnt buy anything, just walked around. then we ate sushi. (: ate lots. then went to my aunt's house. bought haagen daz ice cream and ate at her house. we didnt eat breakfast and we ate sushi at 12. so we were kind of hungry at around 3 and ordered pizza! then went home and went to causeway point as there was an indonesian restaurant there. i didnt eat as i was too full. bought two nice shirts from bossini for 20 bucks! tommorow, im going to run at bishan park. myself. haha. sounds interesting eh? maybe going to swim in the afternoon with my parents. haha.

yesterday went plaza with my sister and viv. i bought a bracelet and ripples slippers for my sister and she got the same colour as me. she bought me a birthday present- shayne ward's cd. im super bored. cant think of anything to do. it is going to rain soon, and i cant even chase cars. my auntie buying me blades! yay! then i can go roller blading often after that.

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me and
just forget the world

the end is near and a new beginning will come
although we will all be separated
we will always remember the times we had together
the times we quarrelled with the teachers
the times we gossiped and cursed
the times we avoided and approached
the times we tried to be good
the times we tried to be quiet
the times of agony
all these will be etched in my memory and will never be forgotten

It's hard to believe that I couldn't see
That you were always there beside me.
Thought I was alone with no one to hold,
But you were always right beside me.
This feeling's like no other, I want you to know

I've never had someone that knows me like you do,
The way you do,
And I've never had someone as good for me as you,
No one like you.
So lonely before,
I finally found what I've been looking for.

So good to be seen, so good to be heard,
Don't have to say a word.
For so long I was lost, so good to be found,
I'm loving having you around.
This feeling's like no other,I want you to know

i want to buy cds but so expensive!
i want:
-paris hilton's
-jessica simpson's
-t.a.t.u's
-snow patrol's
and hopefully, LWW's album, although it will sound like *ahem*.

"not that i want anything in return for the hard workjust thatits hard for me to accept that ppl not doing anything gets recognition"
"when the first batch was announcedi am already very depressedmy other huahui frens still came to ask if i got inthey have such high hopes but were disappointed when i said nothen another fren told me they were choosing more recentlyanother bubble of hope burst inside meand i was dissapointed againit could have not been mebut at least my jie!she has contributed so much in both class and CCAsurely they can see thatbut the ppl they choose were like......haiz"
quoting someone's blog. hello?! you dont even have passion, dont even have common sense. sure wont get in still be so hopeful.
anyway, yesterday's tea appreciation was so so boring. i dont drink chinese tea. drinking tea makes me puke. i only drink milo?! hahahs. then we watched 对不起，老师. nice and super funny. i laughed at those sad parts like when the teacher got knocked down, and when she died. so hilarious. and the teachers were behind us. after that, 张老师 said “这部戏本来很感人的，但是不知道为什么，人家哭时，有些学生在笑。” super hilarious. they were singing 小白船 and they repeated it twice, one in female one in male. super funny. their voice very hilarious. and acting super funny.
by the way, my sister told me that there's this game at J8 where you pay one dollar to play, and if you win, you get to choose between xbox360, gameboy or a motorola phone. we're planning to 碰碰运气 tomorrow. hahahs.
people, my birthday is on the 8th of november and it is during the holidays so must give me present early! or on the 17th of november also can. and those who are interested in coming for my poolside party on the 4th of november in commemoration of my birthday, please contact me.

today's mini drama was a success! although we didnt we, but we were good! but the judges had bad taste. the champs should be HOPE! they were seriously good and i love their performance. loyalty shouldnt have won. their performance made me sleep. ZzZzzz...
anyway, our performance was so good. we did low school musical singapore and we had a lot of fun. jiafeng rocks. she's a natural entertainer. she and steph were like doing some rapping thing for london bridge by fergie and a dance for bop to the top. then there were those weird ones. and me, viv and eehui did a normal one for what i've been looking for. quite fun but i was really nervous because someone was looking at me.
joanna, lijie, stephanie, jiafeng, chloe, faith and alicia are better than some certain leaders in planning things. they are really good when they're serious. and most importantly, we had fun. not like for talentime. but it was really interesting and enjoyable.
we went library today and borrowed more books. and yanlin lent me cashcard to pay off my fines. most cleared already. and i borrowed four more books. haha. im being like a bookworm now, i realised that i should read a book at least once a week. for leisure. and i should start my story.
tomorrow will be a boring day but i'll bring a book to read. haha. borrowed christopher golden's books again. im waiting for my birthday so i get presents. hohos.

i realised something. whether or not i apologise wont change anything. she might accept it but we wont be friends. or perhaps good friends. or even sms friends. or her confidante.

i was wrong and i cant turn the clock.
anyway, it wont make any difference.
we wont be good friends like before.

performance equals to having fun
performance is not equal to being clowns.

the talentime was a failure. there was no singing. certain classes sang badly but ours totally cannot hear, cannot see. they were standing so far. only thing we saw---broken heart. sadly, if i was a judge, i will confirm this class have no passion. certain people have, but we weren't even given a chance. what leaders with wonderful leadership skills..

i went macs after school and dumb me didnt realise she was sitting behind me. should have sat the other direction. hahs.

drama tomorrow. i volunteered to act. i am passionate about the class. i love class events. i love being part of it. but i hate being part of a failure. i dont want to be reminded that i am a failure myself and these events boost my confidence and spirit. hope the leaders will show more leadership and more opinion than those useless bums of two grace who allowed the threegrace people sing a soundless song.

in times like this, silence is not bliss but mute.

不该说话时，你说一大堆
该说话时，你却静静地听。
let you be un-unheard.

你那么爱她- 李圣杰
直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个
美好风景
只是她早已离去
直到你想通她早已经
不再对你留恋
最后的你
开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱她
为甚么不把她留下
为甚么不说心里话
你深爱她
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她
为甚么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个她
所以你不想再让自己
无法自拔

meaningful lyrics. i like this song, it's one of the latest songs i like. actually li sheng jie's songs are not bad. haha.

we're going to sing L.O.V.E. for talentime and that is so cliche. super sian. i mean we should be having fun and we're singing such a *ahem* song that will make me drift off into my beauty sleep in 1 second. and seriously im not going to sing not because i dont like the song. its because i got sore throat and the song isnt nice thus i shall not strain my voice to sing something not worth singing for me. and i shant sing to make the audience laugh their heads off. which i doubt they will because singing is not entertaining. if we're doing like some act or what perhaps they will see but there's nothing to see, only to hear. so why not sleep? anyway, you can listen while sleeping.

love is what you can live without
love is easy to get and even easier to throw away
like what they say
forgive and forget

uhhs... megan got her 'best friend' back. and phoebe's classmate is staying over. freaking hell. and megan had the courage to call her friend and get her friend back. but yeah. they are innocent primary twos. it is a huge difference from a secondary two girl trying to apologise. after talking to 好朋友 tan cheng, i almost wanted to sms her and apologise. it is almost the end of the year, i've avoided it the whole year and i still am. i am not as brave as everyone thinks. i have major stage fright and i dont even dare to talk to others when im alone. i was born dependent, i cannot survive alone. many siblings train me to be sociable, but i can't be independent. how am i going to face her if i send that sms? it may seem like a simple sms but what if she doesnt accept it. and it is so awkward. but this few days we've been smiling to each other and exchanged 'hi's. i dont have the courage. so pathetic. i am pathetic.

i failed my physics. wow. 14.5 out of 35. and i passed history by 0.5. but i shall be contented.

知足

怎么去拥有一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱一夏天的风
天上的星星笑地上的人
总是不能懂不能知道足够

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛

那天你和我那个山丘
那样的唱着那一年的歌
那样的回忆那么足够
足够我天天都品尝着寂寞

才发现笑着哭最痛
如果你快乐再不是为我
知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛

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