uhhs... megan got her 'best friend' back. and phoebe's classmate is staying over. freaking hell. and megan had the courage to call her friend and get her friend back. but yeah. they are innocent primary twos. it is a huge difference from a secondary two girl trying to apologise. after talking to 好朋友 tan cheng, i almost wanted to sms her and apologise. it is almost the end of the year, i've avoided it the whole year and i still am. i am not as brave as everyone thinks. i have major stage fright and i dont even dare to talk to others when im alone. i was born dependent, i cannot survive alone. many siblings train me to be sociable, but i can't be independent. how am i going to face her if i send that sms? it may seem like a simple sms but what if she doesnt accept it. and it is so awkward. but this few days we've been smiling to each other and exchanged 'hi's. i dont have the courage. so pathetic. i am pathetic.