at times like this, i guess i should just accept her. she's quite ok actually. i should be more neutral towards her. and also, i sort of agree with her. but i really cannot control myself. talking is like my life, my mood. my besties know my mood from the amount i talk everyday. when i talk a lot a lot, it's either im very happy or im very sad. and i always believe that one day, all this talking will stop, and i dont want to waste the time to talk now.
she was betrayed but in my case, i sort of got pulled into the fact that i was the betrayer. every year the same thing happens and it's always none of my business but somehow the blame was always put on me and i became a betrayer. and somehow i miss them a lot a lot. sometimes i think of them really a lot, but us going back together, impossible. but im happy enough to know that we have a past and that is something worth for me to look back on and im happy that i remember the details clearly in my head.
at times like this, thinking of the darlings-dears-dearies cheers me up. thank you to all of you-- vivian darling, eehui darling, si'en darling, tancheng darling, thalia darling, vanessa darling, dorcas darling, delphine dear, joan dearie(gay), yanlin darling, ann yeoh dear and chyifang dear. just realised how many darlings-dears-dearies i have but im glad i have them with me. ((:
and all of a sudden, post-psc blues are back.

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i forgot LOUISA DEARIE!! anyway, there's also LOUISA DEARIE AND OLLIE DEAR!