im super pissed with myself. i just cant bring myself to do work. 真是死性难改!

anyway, so so sorry to vivian, my dear dear one and only best bestie.. so sorry for sounding so cold to you and the phone. so sorry for sounding so pissed all the time. so sorry for everything.

going through a really difficult time now. a mental fight with myself. like the devil and angel fighting inside. this will be a really tough fight and both 'teams' have good defense skills, im not sure which will emerge as the winner. but i sure hope it'll be the angel. but being in this class can be really demoralising. and having demoralising teachers, it's a lot worse.